I love writing this blog about my thoughts and life lessons. In all my years of life I never remember people acting the way they are now. I’m not going to talk about the virus everyone is hyped up about, but we need to take this time to reconnect and reflect on our life. Some people may become upset over this post, but always, please remember that I post MY LIFE LESSONS and JOURNEY, it’s not about anyone else. This virus is causing people to not be with the ones they love, which is why this blog is called, “Confused”, along with other confusing thoughts.

I spent most of my life confused about personal connections with friends, family members, co-workers, and people I felt as though they were more like family than friends. Relationships can be confusing at one time or another. We should love the people we love the same no matter what happens in our life together. We change when someone is sick and our thoughts change when we cannot see the ones we love when we want to.

I have a woman I love, Dorita S., who I met when I was a bartender. I learned from this woman that you can love someone as a daughter even though there is no blood relationship. It scares me to know that this virus is not allowing me to visit her (mom), or the her husband, who I proudly call dad. I learned what “family love” really is through Mike and Dorita. This virus is also not allowing me to see my daughter. Not allowing me to see the people I love tremendously is so scary and confusing.

Another thing that confuses me (yes, I am only talking about myself,) is why people only want to become closer or care more for someone who is ill or going through a life crisis. I totally get that we may have so many friends and family members that it’s hard to continue to keep track of everyone, heck I am guilty of this as well. What I do become confused about is why we acknowledge someone more when they are ill. One person I hardly know, but grew up knowing is Tammy K. We were never close, but when we became friends on facebook, my heart grew tremendously. She had a brain tumor and I worried so much and keep close eye on her posts. She taught me how strong one can be being so young and going through so much. I loved seeing her family poor love to her in her time of need. We should all be so close at all times.

So….you know me….I think about a zillion things all the time and at times my blog will prove that. This may be one of those blogs. I get confused how a virus can alter our life so much, which makes me think about the ones I love and can’t see. I pray that nothing happens to my loved ones while I am unable to visit them. I think about those who are going through life threatening events and wondering what it would be like not seeing the ones you love the most in these confusing times.

My lesson in this blog is… to always show the ones you love just how much you care. Let them know you care even if you can’t see them. Admire the love and strength “true” families have for one another, and learn from them as I did with Tammy K. We will get back to normal again and I will make sure I spend more time with the ones I love because…. time is precious and we never know when our time is up.

Trust the Journey and Life Lessons,

Alexis